Don’t grow up too fast little boo

I first drafted this title in July……hubz made this comment one evening as we could see signs that our little man was growing up…….scary times!

Then tonight during bathtime he said those exact same words again “don’t grow up too fast little boo” ……..there’s no denying that it’s happening now!

I’m always caught in such an awkward place with TGs development…….part of me loves seeing him grow and learn and copy and discover things for himself and yet part of me just wants to cuddle him tight and go back to rocking him to sleep (slightly joking about this one, he’s fucking heavy!)

Sometimes he still cries out and comes into our bed at night. When he does, he normally wriggles and niggles all over the place and doesn’t like the blanket over him or you having your arm over him. Yet sometimes he cwtches in so tight and occasionally puts his arm around my neck which is so cute.

It’s times like that when I wish he was a little baby again and that we could just hold certain moments in time.

But then times like tonight I can see how much independence he’s gained over the last few months and am so proud.

As much as he can be a pain in the backside at times, I love seeing the world through his eyes……such innocence.

Like this morning it was raining and as we drove to nursery he said “the sun’s crying” which was a lovely way of putting it. He then proceeded to tell me to “follow the sun” as it had taken his cake, which wasn’t quite so profound but hey ho!

On the way back he “drove” all the way home with Pops, using his new toy steering wheel (which, incidentally makes a lot of noises, just in case you were thinking of getting one!)

He was convinced that he had driven back from the nursery house bless him!

Even book times have been a bit more animated lately as he’s interacting with the books and characters, eating the food, putting the wellies on in his garden book so he can water things.

Tonight he went to the giants castle with Mr Greedy which was a new one!

We’ve also introduced bath bombs recently which he loves, and he actually asked for a bath tonight.

He seemed such a grown up as he was helping me to run the bath and then walked up the stairs saying he had to go to his bedroom to get his robot bath bombs and towel.

When he came down he told Pops quite matter of factly “I’ve got my robot but there was no teddy bear ones left in my room Pops” .

The silent sob moment came when he took his top off and then sat down on the floor to take his socks off before getting in the bath!

I’ve realised lately that I haven’t actually updated this for a lot of the things we’ve done as a family, probably since his birthday!

Will have to get onto that as there’s lots of news to share, including his first trip to his first live show!

But for now I’m going to keep thinking about how much he’s growing and changing before our very eyes.

I always see lots of those “just one more book, just one more cwtch” type posts on my Instagram feed and although you don’t always feel like giving them one more book, as you’re itching for some alone time / couple time, it all rings true sometimes.

He’s not always going to want kisses and cuddles or even being carried to bed. (That will be a hard bedtime when he walks up by himself, but luckily he still gets carried up at the moment!)

So for now (except for when he’s being a pain) I’m going to steal all the moments I can, as you never know when the last of anything will be.

Don’t grow up too fast little boo, you’re only young once.

I’m off to sob quietly into my G and T now!

Over and out, Mammy tugboat xx